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Monday, March 07, 2005
It has been a long long time since I have been able to update my blog! My oh my! How time flies when you try to keep up with classes and many other things! It is hard to balance so much! I think I am beginning to loose my mind! Lately, I have just been so numb to sin and my spiritual life has been suffering so much. Today I tried to make an effort to rebuild my spiritual life and I just spent about 20 minutes in prayer and I feel such sorrow for my sin and my ingratitude. At the same time I feel so wonderful to regain a prayerlife after being so dead for so long.
Right now I just feel rather sad simply because I really need someone to confide in and I have no one right now... How I wish I was no longer here. I hate being in the world. I just wish I could run away, but I can never run away from the world, because I am always a part of it in some way. I feel lonely right now. I think I will go pray. I cannot continue to wallow in this sadness for long.
God Bless and Mary Protect!
Posted at 09:41 pm by Angela Louise
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Ash Wednesday! Hooray! It is Lent! My Lenten promise this year, is to schedule my days as best as I can and try to live according to that schedule. Also, along with this, I am fasting on Wednesdays. Mass was rather nice this morning as well, except I was in the wrong section and was inbetween all the school children. I felt a little akward. After that, I came back to school and went to class. After that I took a nap, hoping to get up an hour later, but I slept clear on until 5 this evening. I am still very tired now, but it's all for the greater glory of God!
I wrote a letter to Mother Mary Regina awhile ago, but I lost it somewhere. I just hope someone put it in the mail. Anyways, I've been busy not sleeping. I think I had a temporary case of insomnia. I'm doing well now, though. It ws funny how today after I came back from Mass with my ashes, I felt embarresed about it and "hid" myself as much as possiable. I forced myself to be proud of my faith, and started to walk without looking at my feet. A lot of other people here at school didn't get ashes today. Then there were a few of my Protestant friends who went to Immaculate Conception Parish for Mass. I was a bit suprised by that.
Over all, today has been rather nice. I really don't have any homework until Friday, and I tried to get some reading done, but I got so bored with it quickly. That is most likely because I am very tired right now. In fact, I should be going to bed soon. Well, I wish all a peaceful, blessed, and fruitful Lenten Season and that they may grow closer to Our Lord.
God Bless and Mary Protect!
Posted at 10:53 pm by Angela Louise
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
So, forget the calling to youth ministry. I got a letter from Mother Mary Regina from the Poor Clare Colettines out here and now things are back to where they have been! I'm working on writing some letters now to send out soon. Classes sure are keeping me busy. I have five classes, two on Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday and three on Tuesday. Right now I have five classes: The Search for Humane Values in Literature, Painting, Introduction to Multimedia (Digital Art), Biblical Studies, and Psychology. Here's hoping that I can manage my time well enough to do well in these classes! I'm sure I can, I'll just have to stop lounging about my room doing nothing or visiting friends when I should be reading or something else for class. I have a bit of a tendency to do that sometimes. Until next time, God Bless and Mary Protect!
Yours in the Most Sacred Hearts of Jesus and Mary,
Angela
Posted at 11:08 pm by Angela Louise
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Monday, January 31, 2005
Things are the same, college is the same. Today we started the new semester and it has been allright... I know I am going to have to work alot this term and I've only been to two of my classes so far! As for my vocation, I'm still pretty sure about becoming a religious, but thoughs of being a youth minister creep into mind. I know it has to do with the awesome CCD class I had last wednesday, but I'm still open to whereever the Lord os calling me. Personally, I'm still hoping to be His Bride! :) Then again, I can be His Bride and minister to youth at the same time, but then I wouldn't be called to the cloister. Man, this is some really confusing stuff.
Posted at 01:21 pm by Angela Louise
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Friday, January 21, 2005
Apparition of Our Lady in Zeitun, Egypt
1968-1970
 My good friend Jennie and I were talking about Marian Apparitions yesterday, and she brought up this AMAZING and WONDERFUL apparition! Witnessed by MILLIONS of people: Christians, Jews, Moslems, and those without a faith. The pictures shown above are actually pictures of the Blessed Mother appearing over the Co-Optic Church in Zeitun, Egypt. She was even on TV! She would appear there about two or three times a week, and she would stay for about twenty minutes, and even up to eight hours! Although, during her visits, she did not speak a word. The pictures of her during these visits are simply gorgeous! Here is a link to a website that has other links to more information, and many more wonderful photos! Zeitun Apparitions Art Gallery,Coptic church,Cairo,Egypt
Posted at 10:51 am by Angela Louise
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 Okay... I need to get cracking! I have a Rosary I need to send out to Adam this weekend and I need to do some laundry as well. I have written a letter to some Poor Clare Colettines and I sent that out Tuesday this week. I've also been e-mailing some Passionist Nuns in Kentucky for a little while now. I'm not too sure if I will look into finding a Carmel, simply because there are so many! I visited the Dominican Contemplative Sisters in Lousiana just this past weekend, and it was a marvelous visit. They even have my measurements in case I do enter! 
My vocation is still strong to the cloistered life, and when I find where God wants me, He will let me know!
Posted at 09:42 am by Angela Louise
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004
+JMJ+
After over a year of "perpetual" discernment, I have decided to contact a few orders and see where it is that God wants me. As of now, I am feeling exspecially drawn toward Sister Mary Imelda and the Dominican Contemplative Sisters in Lousiana.
Here are a few general orders I am contacting:
Passionist Nuns
Poor Clare Nuns
Carmelite Nuns
Anyways, I just want to see what else is out there and and which Life and Spirituality seems to fit me, and if it is where God wants me.
Until next time,
God Bless and Mary Protect!
Yours in the Most Sacred Hearts of Jesus and Mary,
Angela
Posted at 06:44 pm by Angela Louise
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Monday, December 13, 2004
Sister Mary Imelda of the Holy Eucharist, O.P. left me this wonderful message and I had a chat with her online afterwards... I feel called to help these beautiful and wonderful women in their mission of "re-founding" their order.
Hopefully I will be able to visit them in January!
+ J.M.J.D.
10 December 2004
2nd Week Advent
Dear Angela Louise,
My name is Sister Mary Imelda of the Holy Eucharist, O.P.. I am the Novice Mistress of the cloistered Dominican Monastery of the Heart of Jesus in southeastern Louisiana.
Your "blog" has drawn our attention and we were wondering if you would be interested in considering our Community in your vocational discernment. We are in the process of re-founding and looking for generous young women willing to leave everything to live a hidden life of sacrifice and prayer. We are hoping to fill the Novitiate within the next year so if you know anyone else with aspirations such as your own, please share our invitation with them as well.
Aside from official business, the only correspondence permitted to us during the holy Seasons of Advent and Lent is to our prospective membership. You may e-mail us at Ldominican@aol.com with your name and address. We prefer that after the initial contact, all correspondence be done via "actual" mail so it may be a few days before you would receive our information packet.
We look forward to hearing from you soon!
In the Hearts of Jesus, Mary, and St. Dominic,
Your Dominican Nuns
Ldominican@aol.com
Posted at 06:45 pm by Angela Louise
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This happened while I was at a Steubenville Confrence in 2004 during benediction. I've only told a few people about it but I just want to post it here...
It was a neatexperience because I felt really alone and secluded during adoration even though we were crammed in there like canned vienna sausages... But in the beginning, I just bowed down before the King of Kings, and laided myself before Him... And nothing really happened until He started getting closer by me...
It was strange, I started breathing harder and faster, like hyperventilating, but I don't do that. All I wanted to sing was Jesus or Hallelujah parts of songs, no other words... I began to feel a pain inside, not a severe one, but one that made me extreamly sorrowful... and I began weeping... it was bad... I began shaking slightly, not a whole lot, but I yelled at myself to stop it. I was kneeling before Him when he was on the oppostie side of the bleachers this all started. I laid my hands out and I bowed my head down to the ground... I felt awful inside, and I had just gone to reconciliation about an hour or two before hand... I wanted to scream out loud, but I just condensed myself into a little ball and silently screamed. That wasn't the first time I've done that, I've done it before in church during prayer. I felt utterly wretched before Him, but I wanted Him so bad! This went on for what seemed like a long time... but when he was right in front of me, I looked at Him, with such longing for Him... It was the most beautiful thing ever!
Suddenly peace rushed over me and Joy flooded my heart! I felt Him calling me once again to be His faithful and obediant spouse... There was such joy in me, I gave everything to Him right there and then, all my soul, all my love, everything that I am. I made a vow to Him that night... I said to Him, "I will be your faithful, loving trusting, humble bride. There is nothing else I want." It was beautiful and amazing... Even though this was my third year at Steubenville, ever year has changed my life! I was just so filled with joy, it was almost pure ecstacy! How much I long to be near Him again. I love You, Dear Sweet Jesus!
Posted at 05:30 pm by Angela Louise
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